Things do happen when you least expected. And whether you like it or not, if it’s meant to be, it’s meant to be. We just cannot force for things to happen. Even if you hope for it, every single day of your life. I did my part, the best that I could. But it wouldn’t happen, for now, at least, I hope.
Maybe some things are not meant to be. Or maybe some things take time for it to happen. Time, is what I have now. But time is killing me. Guess that is what you get when you anticipate something so much. After months of being in the ‘uncertain’ zone, today, a little birdie told me to let it go. It was hard to swallow but I need to. Like I said, I cannot force things or a person on what I want. And I’m really sorry that it happened. And I’m really sorry it didn’t happen. Yeah, sorry for myself. =(
Do I give up now? Or should I keep praying and hoping that it would happen one day? I don’t know. This is my first time and I didn’t know that it would hurt so much. It also makes me feel like karma is getting back at me. Is this how it feels? Feeling broken hearted? It’s like a mixture of wanting to cry and trying to hold on at the same time. That’s how I feel right now. I want to cry because it made me really sad. But I still want to hold on to it because it was the best thing that ever happened to me so far. And I can’t run away because it has been part of my life since I was a kid. I had a big loss today.
So what should I do now? Take up a hobby to keep myself busy so that I won’t feel lonely? I guess. And also, I need to make sure that I’m so tired every night before bed to prevent myself from thinking about stuff that can make me sad and cry before I sleep. Looking and feeling sad is the last thing that I want my mum to notice in me. She knows everything. So I need to put on a smile everyday. I just don’t like to show my weak emotions to my loved ones. Call me an ego but I don’t to worry them. I do feel like telling my mum about it, but she knows him. And I don’t want her to blame him because it was nobody’s fault. Time and distance were the factors. And I guess I scare him.
Everything happens for a reason. Including what happened to me today. But still, he’s my best friend. And I’m keeping that. For what it’s worth, it’s better that way. So, I’m keeping my chin up and will be looking on the bright side. Maybe it’s true when they say that the grass is greener on the other side. =)
2008 has been a year with loads of ups and downs. And I’m thinking that 2009 wouldn’t be any different. That’s how life is supposed to be like. It’s a matter of how you handle it.
Happy new year to all of you. May 2009 brings more joy and happiness to us.
*fingers crossed*
and that's that
Monday, December 29, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Jeans: A wardrobe essential?
Almost everywhere I go, I tend to see most of the people there would be wearing jeans. From young to old, both men and women. But each of them has their own style. There’s skinny, flare, bootcut, straight, slim straight, super skinny and other style that maybe I’m not aware of. When I was at a mall the other day, it crossed my mind that everybody must at least have a pair of jeans. But then again, maybe not everyone.
To me, a pair of jeans is a type of clothing that is versatile. You can wear it with almost anything. A plain t-shirt, a smart shirt, a girly blouse or even a kebaya top. Jeans can be both functional and stylish. It’s pretty much an easy and a comfortable thing to wear, unless you’re wearing a really tight pair of jeans that is blocking your blood circulation. A person can be happy with only a pair of jeans in possession and would be wearing the same one over and over again. However, there is also a group of people who owns more jeans than you can imagine. There is a female celebrity who has more than 500 pairs of jeans in her closet. That is more than a pair of jeans for each day in a year! And I believe that each pair of her jeans cost more than usual.
I own several pairs but I always tend to wear this particular pair that I really love. No matter what my top is, my favorite jeans would always match it up. I love it so much that even if I buy a new one, I always think that the new ones can never beat my fav. So why do I even think of buying a new one? I guess every time I look into my wardrobe, I always think that I still need another pair that would match with some of the tops that I have. Yeah right. More like wasting my money. So right now, I would not but another pair of jeans. Other types of pants are fine but not jeans of any kind. But then again, what if I find another favorite pair? Ouh, I’m taking my words back.
and that's that
To me, a pair of jeans is a type of clothing that is versatile. You can wear it with almost anything. A plain t-shirt, a smart shirt, a girly blouse or even a kebaya top. Jeans can be both functional and stylish. It’s pretty much an easy and a comfortable thing to wear, unless you’re wearing a really tight pair of jeans that is blocking your blood circulation. A person can be happy with only a pair of jeans in possession and would be wearing the same one over and over again. However, there is also a group of people who owns more jeans than you can imagine. There is a female celebrity who has more than 500 pairs of jeans in her closet. That is more than a pair of jeans for each day in a year! And I believe that each pair of her jeans cost more than usual.
I own several pairs but I always tend to wear this particular pair that I really love. No matter what my top is, my favorite jeans would always match it up. I love it so much that even if I buy a new one, I always think that the new ones can never beat my fav. So why do I even think of buying a new one? I guess every time I look into my wardrobe, I always think that I still need another pair that would match with some of the tops that I have. Yeah right. More like wasting my money. So right now, I would not but another pair of jeans. Other types of pants are fine but not jeans of any kind. But then again, what if I find another favorite pair? Ouh, I’m taking my words back.
and that's that
Friday, December 19, 2008
Dreaming of dreams
Do you dream when you’re asleep? If you do, do you tend to remember your dreams?
Well, my answer to both questions, YES.
Almost every night, I will dream in my sleep. The dream has always been random. From logic and around people I know, to illogical and with strangers. I dreamt of celebrities, leaders, teachers, family and friends. I dreamt of people who are still around me and those who I miss a lot because they left me for good.
My dreams are sometimes sad, sometimes happy, sometimes scary and most of it silly. Once, I dreamt about a big lizard, komodo-dragon like, which entered my house. And the next day, there was really a bog lizard under my mom’s car. But I never take my dreams seriously. As for the lizard incident, it was just plain coincidence. Yes, some of my dreams do come true but that doesn’t mean that I should believe everything that is in my dreams.
Some people may take dreams seriously. To this group of people, dreams are like their predictors of what’s going to happen in life. I read in newspaper today, a man won a jackpot of million ringgit because he dreamt of the numbers that made me rich. Even in our custom, the elders always have their interpretation of dreams. One of the common interpretations is when you dream your teeth are falling out, someone in your family or close to you will pass away. I have heard some people saying this is true because they experienced it themselves, but I still think that it’s just fate. Whether you dream before it happens or not, it will happen because it’s written.
Some people don’t usually dream. Or they think they don’t. There was a research done on human brainwaves during sleeping. The research showed that, human brains send out wave signal when dreaming, meaning there’s usually brain activities even when we sleep. Sleep is the time when our brains will try to sort out the things that have happened during the day and also try to solve problems that we can’t when we were awake. So, human do dream in their sleep. It’s just a matter of whether our brains can remember the dreams or not. Some people think they don’t dream, some people say they dream but can’t remember what the dream was, some can only remember bits of it and some can remember the entire dream.
I’m really sure if dreams are good or bad. All I know is that, some of my dreams have helped me. When I dream of bad things continuously, I know that I’m stressed out. And when that happens, I usually get myself back together. I also have dreamt of my dad, many times. When you really miss a person, seeing that a person in your dream is sometimes enough to cure it. Dreaming of funny or romantic situations always put a smile on my face when I wake up in the morning. There have been times where I wake up from my dreams, crying, too. So, when I can say is that, to me, my dreams are just a part of my life. I don’t mind if I dream when I sleep and same goes to when I don’t dream. I know a person who doesn’t want to be disturbed by dreams when he sleeps. Hehe. You know who you are and I respect that.
Considering that I dream a lot, I’m thinking of keeping a dream diary. A collection of slumber stories. =)
P/s: sebelum tidur, jangan lupa basuh kaki dan baca doa.
and that's that
Well, my answer to both questions, YES.
Almost every night, I will dream in my sleep. The dream has always been random. From logic and around people I know, to illogical and with strangers. I dreamt of celebrities, leaders, teachers, family and friends. I dreamt of people who are still around me and those who I miss a lot because they left me for good.
My dreams are sometimes sad, sometimes happy, sometimes scary and most of it silly. Once, I dreamt about a big lizard, komodo-dragon like, which entered my house. And the next day, there was really a bog lizard under my mom’s car. But I never take my dreams seriously. As for the lizard incident, it was just plain coincidence. Yes, some of my dreams do come true but that doesn’t mean that I should believe everything that is in my dreams.
Some people may take dreams seriously. To this group of people, dreams are like their predictors of what’s going to happen in life. I read in newspaper today, a man won a jackpot of million ringgit because he dreamt of the numbers that made me rich. Even in our custom, the elders always have their interpretation of dreams. One of the common interpretations is when you dream your teeth are falling out, someone in your family or close to you will pass away. I have heard some people saying this is true because they experienced it themselves, but I still think that it’s just fate. Whether you dream before it happens or not, it will happen because it’s written.
Some people don’t usually dream. Or they think they don’t. There was a research done on human brainwaves during sleeping. The research showed that, human brains send out wave signal when dreaming, meaning there’s usually brain activities even when we sleep. Sleep is the time when our brains will try to sort out the things that have happened during the day and also try to solve problems that we can’t when we were awake. So, human do dream in their sleep. It’s just a matter of whether our brains can remember the dreams or not. Some people think they don’t dream, some people say they dream but can’t remember what the dream was, some can only remember bits of it and some can remember the entire dream.
I’m really sure if dreams are good or bad. All I know is that, some of my dreams have helped me. When I dream of bad things continuously, I know that I’m stressed out. And when that happens, I usually get myself back together. I also have dreamt of my dad, many times. When you really miss a person, seeing that a person in your dream is sometimes enough to cure it. Dreaming of funny or romantic situations always put a smile on my face when I wake up in the morning. There have been times where I wake up from my dreams, crying, too. So, when I can say is that, to me, my dreams are just a part of my life. I don’t mind if I dream when I sleep and same goes to when I don’t dream. I know a person who doesn’t want to be disturbed by dreams when he sleeps. Hehe. You know who you are and I respect that.
Considering that I dream a lot, I’m thinking of keeping a dream diary. A collection of slumber stories. =)
P/s: sebelum tidur, jangan lupa basuh kaki dan baca doa.
and that's that
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
to:nick
i think i screwed up our conversation just now. or maybe your tired. or maybe i did screw up. haish~
im really sorry. i didn't mean too. it was really nice talking to you. always have been. and will always be looked forward.
good luck!
and that's that
im really sorry. i didn't mean too. it was really nice talking to you. always have been. and will always be looked forward.
good luck!
and that's that
Monday, December 15, 2008
I can hear the bells
Haha. Klaka je. Me and my friends sibuk duk buat wedding questionnaire kt facebook. Yan la ni yg start. Tp kwn dia yg start dulu kot. Tp it’s kinda fun jugak. Makes me really think about it, really.
Saya berjaya menjawab soklan2 tersebut walaupun saya single. Hehe. Maknenya aku ni kuat berangan jugak la. Well, I think it’s almost every girl’s dream to have a wedding that she likes. Even though we know that it might not be exactly like what we want. But hey, it’s not wrong to dream right? Makes u want to go for it. But for now, I need a candidate dulu kot. Tp rasa2 nye mcm da ada. Tp x confirm lg. hehe. Macam shopping online lak. Da usha, da pilih betul2, da suka da, tp payment x buat lg kot. Nk bwt tp kne tgk duit dlm bank dulu. Ha, lbey kurg mcm tu la. Hehe.
So, below it’s the questionnaire with my answers. Siapa-siapa lg yg rajin, nti buat pastu bgtaw ok? Hehe. Nk jugak taw org lain pny plans.
1. How old are you?
20 years YOUNG, thank you very much
2. Are you single?
yeah, about that....I'm not so sure... =p
3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?
Not too old but not too young. What age is that? 25?
4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
I really hope so =D
5. If not, who do you want to marry?
Can there not be 'if not'?
6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding?
Simple traditional wedding in the garden
7. Your ideal motif?
Coral and ivory
8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
On an island
9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
Family and friends =)
10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
Simple. The important thing is everybody will be there
11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own?
No vows in my custom.
12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?
Can I get 3 layers of tiramisu cake?
13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
My mum suggests the hall in front of my house. Dekat and senang.
14. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?
A bit later after noon. Nti cair make-up. haha
15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
Outdoors reception
16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom?
Hurm, a simple one would do.
17. Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding?
Oldies. and also Lucky by Jason Mraz =)
18. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
A light one.
19. What age do you want to get married?
Now that I've come to think of it, 25! Yan, kawin sama2! haha
20. Describe your ideal husband/wife
Hehe. No, I want it to be a suprise to my friends
21. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
Haha. Makan pakai tgn la. Kita kn org melayu
22. Champagne or red wine?
Air sirap. I'm traditional. hehe
23. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
Days after. Penat kot wedding
24. Money or household item?
Both? hehe
25. Who will pay for the bills?
Both of us.
26. Are you ready for married life?
Amirah Zayanah is. hehe.
27. Will u always be true to your wife/husband
Only if he does the same
28. How many kids do you like to have?
Tengok rezeki =)
29. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
Get I get a new one dear? hehe
30. Will you celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding?
I think i will
31. What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
I want my aunty to be the caterer for my wedding. She's an awesome cook.
32. Will u record your honeymoon in a cd or dvd?
i'll put photos and some vidoes in dvd.
33. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next? Choose 5 person.
Aiman, Nuha, Syamimi, Mayam, Zamir
p/s: I choked a bit during dinner just now. instead of giving me water, my mum asked, "timah ada boyfriend baru da ke?". Ibu, ur funny. =)
and that's that
Saya berjaya menjawab soklan2 tersebut walaupun saya single. Hehe. Maknenya aku ni kuat berangan jugak la. Well, I think it’s almost every girl’s dream to have a wedding that she likes. Even though we know that it might not be exactly like what we want. But hey, it’s not wrong to dream right? Makes u want to go for it. But for now, I need a candidate dulu kot. Tp rasa2 nye mcm da ada. Tp x confirm lg. hehe. Macam shopping online lak. Da usha, da pilih betul2, da suka da, tp payment x buat lg kot. Nk bwt tp kne tgk duit dlm bank dulu. Ha, lbey kurg mcm tu la. Hehe.
So, below it’s the questionnaire with my answers. Siapa-siapa lg yg rajin, nti buat pastu bgtaw ok? Hehe. Nk jugak taw org lain pny plans.
1. How old are you?
20 years YOUNG, thank you very much
2. Are you single?
yeah, about that....I'm not so sure... =p
3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?
Not too old but not too young. What age is that? 25?
4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
I really hope so =D
5. If not, who do you want to marry?
Can there not be 'if not'?
6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding?
Simple traditional wedding in the garden
7. Your ideal motif?
Coral and ivory
8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
On an island
9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
Family and friends =)
10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
Simple. The important thing is everybody will be there
11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own?
No vows in my custom.
12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?
Can I get 3 layers of tiramisu cake?
13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
My mum suggests the hall in front of my house. Dekat and senang.
14. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?
A bit later after noon. Nti cair make-up. haha
15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
Outdoors reception
16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom?
Hurm, a simple one would do.
17. Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding?
Oldies. and also Lucky by Jason Mraz =)
18. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
A light one.
19. What age do you want to get married?
Now that I've come to think of it, 25! Yan, kawin sama2! haha
20. Describe your ideal husband/wife
Hehe. No, I want it to be a suprise to my friends
21. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
Haha. Makan pakai tgn la. Kita kn org melayu
22. Champagne or red wine?
Air sirap. I'm traditional. hehe
23. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
Days after. Penat kot wedding
24. Money or household item?
Both? hehe
25. Who will pay for the bills?
Both of us.
26. Are you ready for married life?
Amirah Zayanah is. hehe.
27. Will u always be true to your wife/husband
Only if he does the same
28. How many kids do you like to have?
Tengok rezeki =)
29. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
Get I get a new one dear? hehe
30. Will you celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding?
I think i will
31. What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
I want my aunty to be the caterer for my wedding. She's an awesome cook.
32. Will u record your honeymoon in a cd or dvd?
i'll put photos and some vidoes in dvd.
33. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next? Choose 5 person.
Aiman, Nuha, Syamimi, Mayam, Zamir
p/s: I choked a bit during dinner just now. instead of giving me water, my mum asked, "timah ada boyfriend baru da ke?". Ibu, ur funny. =)
and that's that
Sunday, December 14, 2008
what are your reasons for having a blog?
I was talking to my good friend last night about lots of stuff. Then he told me that he read my blog.
He then asked me, "Is everybody supposed to have a blog?"
My obvious answer was NO.
Then he asked why do I have one? Here are my reasons.
My blog is where I write things when I feel like it. Because I don't update or put in new entry everyday. When I feel like writing and sharing it with the rest of the world, this space is the place.
My blog is kinda my medium to connect me with my friends. It's like pouring your heart out or saying your opinion on stuff indirectly to my friends and knowing their responses through the comment section.
My blog also has a few links to my friends' blog pages. though it's not many, but I'm still trying to add more so that i can know about my friends' whereabouts even though I'm not keeping in touch with them directly everyday. It show that I care. And yes, I do care.
Well, what I can conclude is that, sharing is caring =D.
my blog is a way for me to share with my readers my thoughts and feelings and I feel the same too about their blog pages. So, those are my reasons.
What's yours?
and that's that
He then asked me, "Is everybody supposed to have a blog?"
My obvious answer was NO.
Then he asked why do I have one? Here are my reasons.
My blog is where I write things when I feel like it. Because I don't update or put in new entry everyday. When I feel like writing and sharing it with the rest of the world, this space is the place.
My blog is kinda my medium to connect me with my friends. It's like pouring your heart out or saying your opinion on stuff indirectly to my friends and knowing their responses through the comment section.
My blog also has a few links to my friends' blog pages. though it's not many, but I'm still trying to add more so that i can know about my friends' whereabouts even though I'm not keeping in touch with them directly everyday. It show that I care. And yes, I do care.
Well, what I can conclude is that, sharing is caring =D.
my blog is a way for me to share with my readers my thoughts and feelings and I feel the same too about their blog pages. So, those are my reasons.
What's yours?
and that's that
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
when a man hits
scene 1
td on the way balik rumah from KBmall, lalu satu lorong kecik ni...ada motor kt dpn
yg bawak tu laki, blkg dia ada sorg pmpn...couple kot...
pastu tgh drive blkg diorg tuh, nmpk diorg mcm duk pukul2..
ingtkn bergurau manja..skali yg laki tu stop motor tuh...dua2 turun
pastu yg laki tu pukul pmpn tu...mmg pukul serius...smpi terduduk pmpn tuh ats rumput tepi longkang...
mmg time tuh x brani lgsg nk stop n tolong...tgk laki tu gaya mcm drug addict jek..
pastu pndi2 la pmpn tu settle sendiri...bkn xnk tlg dik...tp mmg benda2 cmni ptot fikir siang2..
da nmpk tuh ibu trus ckp.."jgn kwn la ngn org cmtu"
scene 2
masa tu dkt KLIA, tgu flight balik kb...time cuti semester kt mrsm langkawi dulu
tgh bace magazine, depan skit ada married couple tgh duduk...
yg si isteri tgh ckp phone time tuh, tp mcm takot2...bile yg pmpn tu da abis ckp phone
si suami rampas phone si isteri and trus marah2..
tny sapa yg call...laki tu lagi?..lbey kurg cmtu la..pastu pmpn tu ckp xde sapa..tp dlm nada takot...laki tuh trus off phone si isteri and tukar sim card, masukkn sim card pmpn tu dlm phone dia...si isteri merayu jgn..
si suami mula meninggikn suara...masa tu rmi org dlm boarding hall...dpn org ramai dia marah isteri dia...si isteri mula menangis, merayu supaya suami dia x marah2...malu katanya, dpn org ramai...
skali, si suami menampar si isteri di pipi...kuat bunyinye, smua org kt situ boleh dngr...org ramai sudah lama memandang...mula2 nk masuk cmpur kang si suami marah...tp bila da start tampar, abg kt sblh tuh mmg da x tahan...dia ckp kt si suami minta bertenang...org rmi, bawa hal rumahtangga ke rumah...si suami bwt bodo and x layan si isteri...masa nk board plane, dia tinggal isteri dia sorg2...lpas tu x taw ape jd..
both scenes really happened in front of my eyes...
dua-dua nmpk cm dlm drama...srius...n it scares me...
im sure, for both couples in both scenes, they must be truly in love when they first met...care for each other n everything...but somehow, after some time...the men forgot about it and started to treat the women like crap...
a man shud never hit a woman...unless kalo da berkahwin, itu pon atas sbb2 tertentu dan lpas da bwt cara2 yg lain utk menghukum si isteri....
to me, laki yg pukul pmpn ni dayus...nk tunjuk ego, nk tunjuk terer...kalo da terer sgt, cuba la ckp leklok2 ngn bini...talk face-to-face, heart-to-heart...ni x, tgn tu gatal je nk pukul org...x gentleman lgsg...
pastu, kalo yg boyfriend pukul girlfriend lagi melampau...belum kahwin lg da cmtu, kalo da kahwin mmg seksa la hidup pmpn tuh...to girls out there, if ur bf starts to treat u bad, x yah tgu pukul, kalo dia da start calling u bad names bila dia tgh marah2, ha, baik jgn la...learn it from the girl who've been there...it's a sign that it will somehow be like that or worse when u get married...there's a lot of other guys out there who will respect u and treat u well...ye, mmg kdg2 si perempuan akan bwt salah, tp x perlu la menghukum sebegitu sekali...cuba berbincang...it's always the best way...
if u want to gain people's respect, give ur's first....
and that's that
td on the way balik rumah from KBmall, lalu satu lorong kecik ni...ada motor kt dpn
yg bawak tu laki, blkg dia ada sorg pmpn...couple kot...
pastu tgh drive blkg diorg tuh, nmpk diorg mcm duk pukul2..
ingtkn bergurau manja..skali yg laki tu stop motor tuh...dua2 turun
pastu yg laki tu pukul pmpn tu...mmg pukul serius...smpi terduduk pmpn tuh ats rumput tepi longkang...
mmg time tuh x brani lgsg nk stop n tolong...tgk laki tu gaya mcm drug addict jek..
pastu pndi2 la pmpn tu settle sendiri...bkn xnk tlg dik...tp mmg benda2 cmni ptot fikir siang2..
da nmpk tuh ibu trus ckp.."jgn kwn la ngn org cmtu"
scene 2
masa tu dkt KLIA, tgu flight balik kb...time cuti semester kt mrsm langkawi dulu
tgh bace magazine, depan skit ada married couple tgh duduk...
yg si isteri tgh ckp phone time tuh, tp mcm takot2...bile yg pmpn tu da abis ckp phone
si suami rampas phone si isteri and trus marah2..
tny sapa yg call...laki tu lagi?..lbey kurg cmtu la..pastu pmpn tu ckp xde sapa..tp dlm nada takot...laki tuh trus off phone si isteri and tukar sim card, masukkn sim card pmpn tu dlm phone dia...si isteri merayu jgn..
si suami mula meninggikn suara...masa tu rmi org dlm boarding hall...dpn org ramai dia marah isteri dia...si isteri mula menangis, merayu supaya suami dia x marah2...malu katanya, dpn org ramai...
skali, si suami menampar si isteri di pipi...kuat bunyinye, smua org kt situ boleh dngr...org ramai sudah lama memandang...mula2 nk masuk cmpur kang si suami marah...tp bila da start tampar, abg kt sblh tuh mmg da x tahan...dia ckp kt si suami minta bertenang...org rmi, bawa hal rumahtangga ke rumah...si suami bwt bodo and x layan si isteri...masa nk board plane, dia tinggal isteri dia sorg2...lpas tu x taw ape jd..
both scenes really happened in front of my eyes...
dua-dua nmpk cm dlm drama...srius...n it scares me...
im sure, for both couples in both scenes, they must be truly in love when they first met...care for each other n everything...but somehow, after some time...the men forgot about it and started to treat the women like crap...
a man shud never hit a woman...unless kalo da berkahwin, itu pon atas sbb2 tertentu dan lpas da bwt cara2 yg lain utk menghukum si isteri....
to me, laki yg pukul pmpn ni dayus...nk tunjuk ego, nk tunjuk terer...kalo da terer sgt, cuba la ckp leklok2 ngn bini...talk face-to-face, heart-to-heart...ni x, tgn tu gatal je nk pukul org...x gentleman lgsg...
pastu, kalo yg boyfriend pukul girlfriend lagi melampau...belum kahwin lg da cmtu, kalo da kahwin mmg seksa la hidup pmpn tuh...to girls out there, if ur bf starts to treat u bad, x yah tgu pukul, kalo dia da start calling u bad names bila dia tgh marah2, ha, baik jgn la...learn it from the girl who've been there...it's a sign that it will somehow be like that or worse when u get married...there's a lot of other guys out there who will respect u and treat u well...ye, mmg kdg2 si perempuan akan bwt salah, tp x perlu la menghukum sebegitu sekali...cuba berbincang...it's always the best way...
if u want to gain people's respect, give ur's first....
and that's that
will u marry me?
ok...sapa2 pun jgn jwb...nti ada gak yg kawin awl nti
me, my mom and my bro were having a chat in the kitchen pada malam hari raya aritu...smbl2 kemas dapur..it seemed that my bro were feeling kinda stressed out(i guess) for not having a gf....
and kalo dia stress..mmg akn nmpk sgt2...so...my mom talked to him...
according to my mum,(Ibu 2008) benda-benda macam ni, kita x blh paksa
when the time comes, the time comes
betul kn? yela, rmi je pmpn ske my bro tp bukan smua tu gf material kn? xkn la nk main amik cmtu jek...lgpon its not the time to test drive anymore....he shud be having a gf that can be a candidate for the wife post....tgk umur la kn? hehe...then dia ckp dia rse ada pmpn ske dia tp dia cm x ley nk ske pmpn tuh...so i tell him, da kalo x ske nk paksa ape...maybe she's not the one kn?...n then my mom ckp "kwn je dlu ngn sme org...some day akn ada pnya...kita yg merancang, Tuhan yg menentukan...tp jgn la x berusaha plak...pmpn x bpe nk bwt first move...n lelaki itu sgt la gentleman kalo dia yg bwt first move"....and i nodded approving my mom...
then, tetbe, trase nk tny..."ibu, how did u meet dad?"....ibu pon cite la psl locelife dia,"dlu ibu jumpe aboh mase sama2 blaja form 6 kt IP kt kota bharu....n ibu pon ada gang mcm timah...kwn rmi2 laki n pmpn...pastu dulu, ibu blk umah from IP naik beca pg umah nenek...n ur dad would follow from the back with his bicycle"...mase tuh...me, my sis n my bro srentak ckp..."cute gile!"....haha..mmg pon..comel n sgt romantik ok...haha...pastu ibu cite, aboh dlu dia straight foward je...dia confessed kt ibu ckp dia nk ibu jd steady girl dia...n pdhal b4 that ibu xske pon dia....aduhai...mmg drama melayu tahun 60-an.....hehe...tp diorg x slalu pun kuar date..kalo kuar mesti rmi2 dgn gang diorg....again ibu ckp...mcm timah....(makes me think mayb...just mayb...it would be the same for me?)...
so, after that, i made a conclusion to my bro...."don't worry, there will be someone for u, and u will know that once ur with her...but then again, don't be too busy with ur work....and i don't think you have to worry about being friends with everybody, because ur the person with most friends that i know...."...it's true....rsenye dia tu da terlbey kwn kot...haha..kalo jln ngn dia akn taw la...pg mana2 je, mesti slalu kne stop sbb dia jumpe kwn dia...haish...
so, tu la dia....we will support you no matter what...tp cpt la kawin...me n tijah wants to put on some fancy clothes and shoes on so that we can party!!!
hehe...
and that's that
me, my mom and my bro were having a chat in the kitchen pada malam hari raya aritu...smbl2 kemas dapur..it seemed that my bro were feeling kinda stressed out(i guess) for not having a gf....
and kalo dia stress..mmg akn nmpk sgt2...so...my mom talked to him...
according to my mum,(Ibu 2008) benda-benda macam ni, kita x blh paksa
when the time comes, the time comes
betul kn? yela, rmi je pmpn ske my bro tp bukan smua tu gf material kn? xkn la nk main amik cmtu jek...lgpon its not the time to test drive anymore....he shud be having a gf that can be a candidate for the wife post....tgk umur la kn? hehe...then dia ckp dia rse ada pmpn ske dia tp dia cm x ley nk ske pmpn tuh...so i tell him, da kalo x ske nk paksa ape...maybe she's not the one kn?...n then my mom ckp "kwn je dlu ngn sme org...some day akn ada pnya...kita yg merancang, Tuhan yg menentukan...tp jgn la x berusaha plak...pmpn x bpe nk bwt first move...n lelaki itu sgt la gentleman kalo dia yg bwt first move"....and i nodded approving my mom...
then, tetbe, trase nk tny..."ibu, how did u meet dad?"....ibu pon cite la psl locelife dia,"dlu ibu jumpe aboh mase sama2 blaja form 6 kt IP kt kota bharu....n ibu pon ada gang mcm timah...kwn rmi2 laki n pmpn...pastu dulu, ibu blk umah from IP naik beca pg umah nenek...n ur dad would follow from the back with his bicycle"...mase tuh...me, my sis n my bro srentak ckp..."cute gile!"....haha..mmg pon..comel n sgt romantik ok...haha...pastu ibu cite, aboh dlu dia straight foward je...dia confessed kt ibu ckp dia nk ibu jd steady girl dia...n pdhal b4 that ibu xske pon dia....aduhai...mmg drama melayu tahun 60-an.....hehe...tp diorg x slalu pun kuar date..kalo kuar mesti rmi2 dgn gang diorg....again ibu ckp...mcm timah....(makes me think mayb...just mayb...it would be the same for me?)...
so, after that, i made a conclusion to my bro...."don't worry, there will be someone for u, and u will know that once ur with her...but then again, don't be too busy with ur work....and i don't think you have to worry about being friends with everybody, because ur the person with most friends that i know...."...it's true....rsenye dia tu da terlbey kwn kot...haha..kalo jln ngn dia akn taw la...pg mana2 je, mesti slalu kne stop sbb dia jumpe kwn dia...haish...
so, tu la dia....we will support you no matter what...tp cpt la kawin...me n tijah wants to put on some fancy clothes and shoes on so that we can party!!!
hehe...
and that's that
Friday, December 5, 2008
grocer in KB
dalam minggu ni, da 3 kali pergi tesco. beli groceries. to me, that's more often than usual. mcm pg lecture yg setiap selang sehari. tp nak buat mcmane. i need to go and grab stuff. ada aje brg yg xde kt umah. tp kan, everytime im there, i will always see other people/families who would buy stuff in bulks. and the stuff tu bkn la stkat beli tissue toilet bnyk2. kdg2 tuh bli ikan n ayam mcm nk jual or bukak kedai. mmg diorg bukak kedai makan kot.
i went to tesco again today. beli brg utk raya haji (jemput la dtg raya kt umah). pastu masa tgh ambik daging, ada makcik kt sblh ni tolak one trolley full of nutrigen(mcm vitagen). sgt la bnyk. satu paket tu kan ada 6 kn? she took more than 20 of the 6-pax. aduhai. itu xkn la nk jual kot anak dia rmi kot. xpon dia ada tadika. tak pon dia cikgu darjah 1@2. tp cuti skolah kn skrg? tu la plik.
pastu da bnyk kali jugak, kalo nak cari brg je, ada je yg out of stock. nak kata pg lmbt, awl da. nak kata rmi org, x sgt. maybe sbb sorg bli bnyk kot. pastu xde limit lak. lg lah. pastuada satu station ni jual udang. makcik2 and pakcik2 bli udang cm semut. sgt la rmi. n sorg2 xpon nk bli skit2. agaknya sbb nk raya haji kot. dkt kota bharu mmg mcmtu. raya haji tu kdg2 lg meriah dari raya puasa. x taw knp, but that's just the way it is. bila blk kota bharu, atmosphere dia sgt2 la lain. kdg2 tu mcm duk country lain. but im not complaining nor too happy about it. my hometown has her own speciality and not everybody can see that.
masa kt langkawi dulu, rmi jugak kwn2 tny, "kt kota bharu ada ape yg best?"
and slalu my silly answer would be, "ada timah". because seriously, i don't know what to tell. it's not that im not proud from where i come from, i do. it's just that, life here is pretty much different from other places that i've been to. life here is very slow pace and there is nothing exciting for people over here to look foward to. but if my friends from other places come to visit kelantan, i can still bring them to places that somehow, they can only get it here. even if not, it would be the kelatanese way. i myself is not that good in my own culture but i do know a bit here and there.
however, going back to kota bharu makes me feel secure and comfortable. u know, homey kinda feeling. because i can go back to my house, eat the food that i know i can't find it anywhere else in the world and go to places that im familiar with since i was a kid. besides, i still have my primary school friends that has been and will always be there for me when i need them. living in KB for my whole 20 years(and counting) made me who i am today. and im proud of it. when people ask me if i ever going to move out of KB, i can't think of an answer ryte now. because as for now, im happy here and can't see any place else that would be the same for me.
and that's that
i went to tesco again today. beli brg utk raya haji (jemput la dtg raya kt umah). pastu masa tgh ambik daging, ada makcik kt sblh ni tolak one trolley full of nutrigen(mcm vitagen). sgt la bnyk. satu paket tu kan ada 6 kn? she took more than 20 of the 6-pax. aduhai. itu xkn la nk jual kot anak dia rmi kot. xpon dia ada tadika. tak pon dia cikgu darjah 1@2. tp cuti skolah kn skrg? tu la plik.
pastu da bnyk kali jugak, kalo nak cari brg je, ada je yg out of stock. nak kata pg lmbt, awl da. nak kata rmi org, x sgt. maybe sbb sorg bli bnyk kot. pastu xde limit lak. lg lah. pastuada satu station ni jual udang. makcik2 and pakcik2 bli udang cm semut. sgt la rmi. n sorg2 xpon nk bli skit2. agaknya sbb nk raya haji kot. dkt kota bharu mmg mcmtu. raya haji tu kdg2 lg meriah dari raya puasa. x taw knp, but that's just the way it is. bila blk kota bharu, atmosphere dia sgt2 la lain. kdg2 tu mcm duk country lain. but im not complaining nor too happy about it. my hometown has her own speciality and not everybody can see that.
masa kt langkawi dulu, rmi jugak kwn2 tny, "kt kota bharu ada ape yg best?"
and slalu my silly answer would be, "ada timah". because seriously, i don't know what to tell. it's not that im not proud from where i come from, i do. it's just that, life here is pretty much different from other places that i've been to. life here is very slow pace and there is nothing exciting for people over here to look foward to. but if my friends from other places come to visit kelantan, i can still bring them to places that somehow, they can only get it here. even if not, it would be the kelatanese way. i myself is not that good in my own culture but i do know a bit here and there.
however, going back to kota bharu makes me feel secure and comfortable. u know, homey kinda feeling. because i can go back to my house, eat the food that i know i can't find it anywhere else in the world and go to places that im familiar with since i was a kid. besides, i still have my primary school friends that has been and will always be there for me when i need them. living in KB for my whole 20 years(and counting) made me who i am today. and im proud of it. when people ask me if i ever going to move out of KB, i can't think of an answer ryte now. because as for now, im happy here and can't see any place else that would be the same for me.
and that's that
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